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|Wednesday, February 27th, 2008|
|Would you pose for Playboy?
This question is for the girls out there. I am curious to your thoughts.
Please do know that you WILL have to be absolutely naked.
Would you pose for Playboy, if they asked you? If so, why? Current Mood: awake
|Monday, July 10th, 2006|
The more I hear of Gackt, the more I like. I absolutley love this band.
I should also point out that I also love Megumi Hayashibara. Absolutley love her work. Just so all of you know.
|Tuesday, April 25th, 2006|
|Friday, January 6th, 2006|
|Sunday, March 20th, 2005|
|Sadness in it's most poetic form!
It's offical. Adam is going to leave on Friday. I am happy for him, I really am, but I can't but to filled with alot of sadness. I haven't cried since my senior year of high school. That was in 2000. I feel like it though. He is a brother to me. I am an only child, but he is so close to me. He's my bud.
It's not like he is leaving somewhere far away. He'll be about 3 or 3 1/2 hours away. I understand that this is for the better for him. Better financially, & just all around. He will have a new job, & he will be with Terri. also, he will away from his father. That's the primary reason why he left. His father is riding him about how he doesn't think this is a good idea. He's affraid that he will fall on his face. Hell he is hoping for it. You see, the way Ilook at it is if it is a mistake then he will learn by it. It's human nature to make mistakes. Not to his father though. Like he has never made a mistake before in his life.
For a decade he has been my running buddy. From our Degeneration - X phase to what we are now. He has help shape, mold me to what I am today. I used to be this clammed up kid. Very shy, always prtected by my shell. He & Kari helped me get out of that shell. I am the most open person in the world. Nothing is taboo with me. All that comes from Adam, & Kari. Kari is in Virgina, so I don't see her as is. Now he is leaving. I guess I don't really know how to handle this. Maybe I haven't found a way to handle or deal with this. I don't know. As I listen to Richie Sambora, his "Undiscovered Soul" album, I find myself being attached to a song called, "You're Not Alone". That is one of the thing that I find helps me cope with shit. Music. If I can find a song that relates to how I feel, or what I am going through, then it helps. nothing helps. I can't find anything. As I look back on all the memories that we have, I am flooded with emotion. I guess I am looking for help on how I feel, or how I can cope. It's hard for me to talk on AOL, & open up like I do face to face. It's hard for me to ask for help, but I am asking you, the readers, help me. I find harder, & harder to smile or be happy, even before he got this job. Tonight is another night of memories, & emotion. The game was awsome. Albany River Rats won 1-0 in overtime. Great game! The we go to Hooters for some food. Fuck!! We have been to Raw, Smackdown, Prom, Morp, all of the school functions of that nature. I don't know how to live on. I just don't know what to do. Everybody has left me. Kari, & now him. Is it time for me to leave also? Maybe go back to college? I don't know. If anyone ever reads this, then I guess I am looking for help on how to deal, or cope with everything that has ben going on. Current Mood: sad
I am going with Adam, & Toby, or Tobius, if you will, to the Pepsi to see a River Rat game. The are taking on Bridgeport Sound Tigers. It's also the day before Adam's birthday. March 21st. I bought him something nice. I don't want to put it on here. Affraid he might read what it is. He has been on here alot as of late. I did, however, pay $55 for the hockey ticket's. Let's just say next week I will have to double my car payment.
It's ten o clock, & I am bored out of my stinking mind. Beat Ratchet & Clank: Up Your Arsenal. Kind of a hard game. Still trying to get the best of Devil May Cry 3. Current Mood: curious
|Sunday, March 13th, 2005|
|Need a good vacation!!
That's what I got back from. Although I shouldn't call it a vacation. Just a weekend away with my uncle in Rome, New York. Went to the Casino, Turning Stone actually. Losed about $8. Slot machines do suck, however, I am hooked on that Joker's wild video poker. Love that.
The new Devil may Cry is out. That flew under my radar. No hype for the game. You would think that with a game franchise like DMC 3 there would be some kind of hype. Alas, nothing in the magazines or paper or anything. Great game but, a little hard. One hit kill mode rocks. I am back into Ratchet & Clank: Up You'r Arsenal. Beat ome missions on that. Well, bed is acalling. Night people. Current Mood: tired
test test test andrew martin
|Tuesday, February 22nd, 2005|
|Thursday, February 17th, 2005|
Well, nothing new in any part of my life. I did, however, do my good deed of the century. On Valentie's Day, I gave this neckless that was suppose to be for one of my ex's, I gave to Eva. I left in her mailbox, & I do hope that she get's it. Well, I can only hope. Current Mood: energetic
|Wednesday, February 9th, 2005|
|17 Days Later.
well, I thought I would use the title to 3 Door's Down new album for my subject title.
Since the last time I posted thing's arent' doing any better than last. I still feel alone, & isolated. I'm never happy, & tired. It's like I don't even get some sleep at night or anything. Lately, I have noticed love in the air if you will. Makes me upset a little. I know Valentine days is coming. Doesn't do me any good. Am I single, & alone? Yes. So, how can I spend a holiday that's about couples alone? How can I enjoy that day? I can't, that's how. I also have Adam telling all about his sexual encounter's that him & Terri are going to have this weekend. Yeah, like that makes me feel any better. I feel like telling everyone more about myself for some reason. I just fel like opening up to everyone reading this. So here goes:
What music do you listen to? I like alot of 80's hair bands, some 80's metal, basicallys anything. Just not alot of rap or country.
I like sports entertainment, video games, & driving my Dodge Neon. I read anything by Janet Evanovich. Nicolas Cage, Wesley Snipes, & Steven Seagall, are my favorite actors. Don't really have a favorite actress. Anything that Capcom does, video games wise, is great I have had 3 gf's in ymlife, but never had sex with any of them. Jennifer was my first girlfriend. I did love her, & still do. My first love in my life. Jenn, was a blast to be with. Great girl. Now she is pregnant, with her ex - husband's daughter. I would knaw off my right arm to be with Jenn again. Next is the first girl I ever kissed, Shannon. Didn't last long, her father hated me. Got caught maing out in my car in the driveway of her house, by her father. Never saw her again. Then there was Kristin, I made it the furthest with her. The first girl that let me feel her chest. She kinda started my nipple fetish. She had a problem with my foot fetish. the relationship just kinda fizzled out. I have to fetishes: nipple fetish, & a foot fetish. How come I can't find any girls who like there feet touched or massaged? Or why can't I meet any girls who like foot massage's?
"Word Life" - WWE U.S. Champion John Cena Current Mood: tired
|Tuesday, January 25th, 2005|
|What are you going to do? Bleed on me?
Just felt like using that line from Monty Python. Been busy at work lately. Alot of batteries. Keeps my paycheck paid I suppose.
I went to the Pepsi to see some hockey. No NHL, so I gotta see some local hockey. It wasn't that bad actually. Some girl about 4 rows down from us, (me, & Toby), got waffled in the forehead with a puck. This happened about 4 minutes in the game. Kinda cool. However, they lost 2-1 against Wilkes Burre Penguins.
I did some thinking, & I am tryign to figure out what the hell is keeping me here. Adam is going for a job in Cortland, Kari is already gone, so what about me? But, where am I going to go? I would like to go west. Hell, I would like to meet raw_diva. She is out there. I think Tennessee by her LJ. I mean, my dream place in L.A. Why you aks? 2nd biggest video game capital of the world. Anyone who know's me know's that video games rule my world. I don't know. I do kinda want to get the fuck out of here. I don't know.
"Word Life" - John Cena WWE U.S. Champion Current Mood: tired
|Thursday, January 13th, 2005|
|Monday, January 10th, 2005|
I would like to say that. I was back to work in Fonda today. Ray wsasn't as sick as he first was. I just thoght I would update this. Kinda bored. About 45 minutes until Raw is on. Just trying to waste time I suppose.
I am stuck in the game "Kingdom Hearts". I'm not even that far along in the game itself. Just having a hard time figuring things out. I thought I would like the real time strategy instead of the turn based strategy thast I am used to, but I'm not really liking it.
Fucked thing up with Kristin, however, it should be said that it isn't my fault as usual. She neglected to tell me that she got anew job, & doesn't get out of work until 6. I wasn't more than 3 step's out of the door to go with Adam, when she called. I did, however, meet someone new at the girls basketball game I went to with Adam. Her name is Megan, (not sure on the spelling of the name), & man, is she beautiful. She is really top heavy for a 17 year old. It just seem's that there is always loop hole for me whenever I meet a new girl. But, man, do I really like her.
Since there is no professional hockey on, I went, & got ticket's to go see the Albany River Rat's next Saturday. They play home, at the Pepsi, against the Scranton Penguins. me, & Adam should be sitting 2 rows back, lower level, center ice. I am so stocked about it. It's going to be fucking awsome.
While I was getting the ticket's for the hackey game, I looked at the card show going on at the Rotteredam Mall,(ticketmaster in the back of Filene's), I ran into my wrestling T-shirt guy's, & bought a new Randy Orton shirt, which I am currently wearing, & a an n.W.o. shirt. I also picked up this autographed photo of "HBK" Shawn Michaels, who they met. All in all it was a good shopping trip.
"Word Life" - John Cena U.S. Champion Current Mood: thoughtful
|Wednesday, January 5th, 2005|
|I'm a Livewire!!
Been realy busy these past 3 days. Monday, & Tuesday I have been locked up at Adam's. Not a bad thing, but I am kinda lacking in the sleep department. Then, tonight, I went to Kari's. She is leaving on Saturday, so it is kinda the last time I get to spend time with her. We watched "Robin Hood, & The Prince of Thieves". Not a bad flick. Crystal was there also. Man, she looked as good as ever. She lives in Texas with her bf, Bruce. She did look really good, really hot.
I have been working in Johnstown these past 2 days. Ray is home sick with whatever bug that is going around. Gotta go back to J'town tomorrow, because there is no confermation on Ray being back to Fonda.
I ahve a date with Kristin on Friday night. Let's hope that this time we follow through on the date. She normally backs out last minute. She wants to go back to what we had before we broke up. Well just have to see if our dinner date stay's.
Love out, & Peace
"Word Life" - John Cena The WWE Unoted States Champion
C.J. Current Mood: Sleepy
|Thursday, December 30th, 2004|
I had all of those holiday traditions this week. Including my shopping trip I have after X-mas. At that said trip, I bought the Bon Jovi box set. I am a big fan of the boys from Sayreville, New Jersey. I love Bon Jovi. I got so much Bon Jovi that I could puke. It's great. Bon Jovi all of the time. I also picked up Queensryche's Empire. Another great Queensryche cd. I have there Operation Mindcrime album, & that is tough to live up to. I also picked up King of Fighter: Maximum Impact for my PS2. Great, buttom mashing fighting game. I think I like Adam's X-mas gift better tham my KoF game. I got him Burnout 3 for his PS2. Awsome game.
"Word Life" - John Cena Current Mood: tired
|Monday, December 20th, 2004|
|Saturday, November 27th, 2004|
|Friday, November 26th, 2004|
|Metal Gear Solid 3: Snake Eater
Hence by the title, you guessed it. I did by the new game from the great, Hideo Kojima. Kojima is the father of Metal Gear franchise. The third one takes place in the 60's, it's a pre-quel to the other 2 Metal Gear's. You play as "Big Boss", but in the game he is referred to as Naked Snake. Big Boss did have 2 son's. Of course, they would be Liquid Snake,(the enemy in Metal Gear Solid 1, & Twin Snakes), & the other son would be Solid Snake(the hero in every Metal Gear, besides Snake Eater). I beat it already, also memorized practically 60% of the game. I am one of the most trusted people on the G4 message boards, because I beat it.
Ratchet & Clank: Up You'r Arsenal, the third in that series, is awsome. Even more weapon's than n the other 3 titles. Insomniac games has a big hit with this title. I'm kinda stuck in the game though. Alot of side quest's in this game.
I also bought, for the gamecube, Sonic Mega Collection. Great game. 7 Sonic titles on this disc. With 5 other unlockable games with it. Have yet to beat that.
Great time for the gameing industry. It's the year of sequels of pre-quel's. Need for Speed 2, Ratchet & Clank 3, Metal Gear Solid 3, Jak 3, Halo 2. Alot of good games. Even Nintendo's newest handheld system is released. The Nintendo DS. The DS stands for Dual Screen. The second screen you can use as a touch pad. First time anyone has done that with a hand held system. However, right around the corner, Sony's new hand held system is coming. Sony's PSP. Playstation Pocket. Rumor has it that the PSP will have Final Fantasy VII-2: Advent Children, the 90 minute movie, that is the sequel to Final Fantasy VII. Again, that is rumor.
So, as you can tell, I be a very busy person. Especially with the holiday's around the corner.
Thanksgiving took place at my Aunt Barbs house. Everyone was cramped in her place. She has a small house, with an even smaller table for everyone. It was cool nonetheless. Stuffed my face.
"Word Life" - John Cena Current Mood: tired